Dear Jacob,
This is going to be full of sap, but I had to come write it all down before all these emotions dwindled away. You were crying, you must have missed me. I got you out of your crib and cuddled you. You laid your little head on my shoulder and calmed down a bit. I decided since I was working today that I would just lay down on the floor with you in my arms and get comfy for a bit. As you laid on me and I stared at the ceiling, I thought to myself how small we are in the grand scheme of things, but how this was the best moment of my day, by far. In fact, the best moment in a long time. Not that I have super bad moments, but this one I just needed to tell you about. I love you, and laying there in your little room made me think just how lucky I am to be your mom. That you are mine, and that Heavenly Father trusts me with you and knows I will do everything I can, teach you everything I know to be right so that you can return safely to Him. There are days were you throw your food at every meal, where I don't know what you'll eat, or if you're going to eat, there are times when we are walking in public and you screech and I get weird looks, there are those moments too. I don't mind those moments, but the moments where I feel so small yet so big and important at the same time are the ones I love most. I feel important because you need me, I am your mom, and YOU are the most important little being to me. I am going to be more aware, so I can catch and remember those really special moments with you.
Love,
Mom
Kristin, that is such a cute post! Very touching. (where are you working by the way?)
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